second chance in life

remember i wrote about my friend ermy (refer to post april 4, 2007)
rina and i went to visit him in GHKL. before that, some friends said that he's recovering well and going to be discharge by end of august. since we dunno which ward was he transferred to we started from ICU (where he was). like jungle tracking or treasure hunt from ICU we were sent to ward 5 orthopedic then to wisma kayu ward K9..

he was sleeping when we finally found him. rina insisted to wake him up so we did. sorry ermy.. but he looked happy to see us. so we borak and old days...

ermy's condition was so much better when the last we saw him. however sad to say that he's paralyze from waist down, and his hands are like jelly.. but he has strong spirit so he's taking it well.. only god knows what really linger in his head.. his boss is supporting all his medical expenses for time being. hats off to this man.

so we got the real story of wht happened tht day.. his boss asked him to go to jpj shah alam to take a client's roadtax, he was reluctant at first coz it was going to rain but since he'd do anything for the boss so he went. on the way, he (on his bike) terlanggar a big manhole and fell. he called his friend said he accident but was ok. after he hanged up, two indian guys approached him, trying to rob him. he fought, struggled, even stabbed one of the guy with a screwdriver. angry, another two friends came to join the party. one of them was a malay guy. 4 against 1. the last that ermy got remember was that he was kicked, boxed and punched by helmets. the only face that he could remember was the malay guy.

knowing ermy, also knowing ermy's friends, i am hoping that they will spare this malay boy's life if they find him.

so now ermy is trying traditional medicine.

i can't help but wonder how the family is taking it. i pray for their patients. i pray that they won't be shy off the wealth so everybody will be with him always. a friend can help only as much..

FACEBOOKHOLICS / ANTI MYSPACE

today i was damn bored so start hacking into my friends (or so-called friends) myspaces. OMG !!! these malay people can be so damn corny ! how did i know these people, i wonder !

read these, every single hair i have on my body was standing straight up !!

"Tabahkanlah diriku..kerana aku hanyalah insan yg terlalu lemah utk mengharungi liku2 hidup yg kau berikan..."

"I'm hApPy wItH u My xxxx...oNly u!!"

"HaTi iNi TeLaH DiMiLiKi....."

and these are so wannabe !

"RIDING IS NOT A CRIME..BIKERS UNITE AND SPREAD THE WORDS"

"boulevard of broken fucking dream!"

oh man... when i told my darling about these, all he said was "STOP ! you are giving me goosebumps ! Idiot !"
hahahhahahahaahhahhahahhahhahhahahhahhaha, loving is sharing, my love !

ok, ok, maybe am a bit bias since these malay friends are ignoring me but was it my fault tht i am busy working and trying my best to earn well so i can survive instead of some people took easy way by asking to borrow money from me ??
i work, they senang-senang only nak pinjam..
n then buat-buat lupa nak bayar..
if not mistaken from those 5 myspaces owner, accummulated around RM8k they have borrowed from me, and never had any intention or effort to pay back.. n then wanna ignore me when i dont have time to lepak with them anymore..
sick in the head and heart when i know they can spent and plan for a gathering, convoy to some beach, sit at mamak from 11pm - 3am every night.. BUT cannot pay my money back ! haiyo !

hmmm, am not the nice me anymore..

well, not my lost ! me easy - dont wanna pay, u answer me in hell..

am just so extremely thankful n greatful that i am doing much better than all of them in total. i got a house, a nice car (oh btw, i just bought a sweet birthday present for myself - a kia optima !), 3 wonderful n ever greatful cats, a nice life in theatre with more sensible thinking human being.. list can go on and on about my stress-free-zone life !

and now am addicted to facebook ! cool man ! it's really fun ! try it !
personally, facebook are more advance, safe, fun, knowledgable, infomative etc than that stupid, corny and only-for-desperado-and-nincompoops-who-tried-so-hard-to-be-cool-but-ended-up-being-a-fool myspace !

my mom mengucap panjang when i told her i wanna marry a non-malay...

hahahahahahahah, i just had to blow my opinion about malays...

cheers !

Personality DNA test

am in the craziest moment of my life (well, tht sentence are too familiar but i already forgot what happened that made me say tht the last time..) right now, i can feel very sad and very happy at the same second or is it that i dont feel anything anymore ?..
so i need a bit of inspiration, need someone or something to tell me tht am good, am nice, am positive, am perfect !

I did a DNApersonality test.. let's see wht is in my system...





You are a Genuine Leader.
personalDNA
about you
You are a Leader

Your solid grounding in the practicalities of life, along with your self-assuredness and your willingness to appreciate new things make you a LEADER.

You're in touch with what is going on around you and adept at remaining down-to-earth and logical.

Although you're detail-oriented, this doesn't mean that you lose the big picture.

You tend to find beauty in form and efficiency, as opposed to finding it in broad-based, abstract concepts.

Never one to pass on an adventure, you're consistently seeking and finding new things, even in your immediate surroundings.

Because of this eagerness to pursue new experiences, you've learned a lot; your attention to detail means that you gain a great deal from your adventures.

The intellectual curiosity that drives you leads you to seek out causes of and reasons behind things.

Your confidence gives you the potential to take your general awareness and channel it into leadership.

You're not set on one way of doing things, and you often have the skills and persistence to find innovative ways of facing challenges.

You are well-attuned to your talents, and can deal with most problems that you face.

Your independent streak allows you to make decisions efficiently and to trust your instincts

The control you feel over your life is empowering to you-- you believe in your abilities and acknowledge your shortcomings. Explanations of the world that focus on destiny or fate don't really interest you. You take responsibility for what goes wrong in your life, and also for what goes well.


If you want to be different:

There's more to life than the practical - take some time to daydream and explore the aesthetic sides of things.


how you relate to others
You are Genuine

Your outgoing personality, your preference for order, and your cautious appreciation of others makes you GENUINE.

You aren't afraid to occasionally be the center of attention. You are comfortable and confident in social situations.

As a charismatic kind of person, you tend to be energized by other people and enjoy their company.

When other people are upset, you are able to think about the situation rationally, without getting too caught up in their feelings.

At times you find it difficult to understand where other people are coming from, and wish they could just see things the way you do.

You are a strongly principled person who believes in right and wrong. This helps you make decisions easily when it comes to moral issues – you don't have to waste time hedging on important values.

In your experience, people tend to get what they deserve. Because of this, you work hard and try to follow your principles in your day-to-day life, knowing that you will be rewarded for your efforts.


If you want to be different:

You have many friends, but you only trust a few of these people when it really counts. Opening yourself up to more of your friends will help you create more strong and meaningful relationships.

Be cautious when judging someone—try harder to understand his or her perspective—and you will become a more intuitive person.



haiya.. how come i need a website to tell me these.. i know maa... :)

is it me or some MALAY man are plain stupid ?

they say women are complicated. have they ever met a malay man ?

when we ask who they've gone out with, they'll say that we don't wanna borrow them money. (n of coz, for whatever stupid reason pun i still dont wanna borrow u money, i work, u work la)

when we ask when can they spend time with us, they'll say "insyaallah" and then accuse us of not giving them a notice in advance.

when we ask wht's going on with their lives, they'll say they are not entitled to answer to everybody but they'll answer directly when an unknown bitch ask in the internet.

when we fight, they'll say we never understand how much they love us.. (yeah right !)

the list can go on and on and on and on..........................

oh, one more important point -
when they practice poligamy, "ikut nabi"...
come debate with me about islam & nabi.. ada berani ka ???

let's do some serious thinking ! serious !

to achieve goals and ambitions
to overcome obstacles and attain a high standard
to increase self-regard by the succesful exercise of talent
to overcome opposition
to have control and influence over others
to defend myself
to defend my psychological space
to vindicate the ego
to receive attention
to be seen and heard
to excite, amaze, fascinate, shock, intrigue, amuse, entertain or entice others
to be free from social restrictions
to resist coercion and constriction
to be independent and act acoording to desire
to defy covention
to avoid pain
to avoid shame
to obliterate part humiliation by resumed action
to maintain self-respect
to repress fear
to overcome weakness
to belong
to be accepted
to draw close and enjoyably reciprocate with another
to converse in a friendly manner, to tell stories, exchange sentiments, ideas, secrets
to communicate, to converse
to laugh and make jokes
to win affection of desired other
to adhere and remain loyal to other
to enjoy sensuous experiences with cathected other
to feed, help, protect, comfort, console, support, nurse or heal
to be fed, helped, protected, comforted, consoled, supported, nursed or healed
to form mutually enjoyable, enduring, cooperating and reciprocating relationship with other, with an equal
to be forgiven
to be loved
to be free


am stage-managing a play titled 4.48 psychosis written by sarah kane, directed by gavin yap, cast line-up are susan lankester, samantha schubert & malik taufiq.

check out : www.klpac.com

we just started reading the play, gavin put in his creative ideas into the presentation of the line, amazingly harmony. but if you listen very carefully, it's not psycho at all. it's all fact and sadly true which we human being always take for granted..

my dream vacation mansion

it's not a mansion la but compared to my 900sqft apartment, it's a mansion to me. it's in cameron highland. it's a beautiful place to relax & party !

when my cousin ask if i can join them to cameron highland, i was like "hmmmmm..." at first.. i was tired due to my new job(s), i haven't had enuf rest, i haven't had enuf time spent with love ones, i haven't had enuf time for myself.. still i decided to go coz my butt is just aching to get out of kl (once a while)..

so, i "halfly" ponteng work tht saturday (july 14). halfly coz i didnt turn up til working hour almost over. made my cousin and the kids waited in the car for about an hour while i went up to the office to pretend tht i came to work and did some stuffs..

road to cameron via tapah was not as bad as i remember.. smooth driving as not many people goes up there.. reach HILLSBROW BUNGALOW (owned by MNI Insurance), i was stunned. (thank u azah & azman for inviting us). pretended to be cool when azah & hubby was around but when they left for brinchang's pasar malam, i became like jakun ! going around the house taking pictures, didnt miss any angle (i think !).. in my head, am already planning a private garden party.. i'd love to get drunk in this house !..

we basically didnt go anywhere in cameron that day, just enjoying the house.. the kids happily jumping and running around coz of the bigger running area, the adults were busy pretending that we owned the house and just relaxing..

luckily i was smart enuf to transport my beloved mr. jack daniel to warm me from the highland weather.. everybody was asking how i can lepak with my sleeveless while the rest already turn from pinkish to blueish.. hehehheheeh.. mr. daniel never let me down !

weather was damn cold due to heavy rain.. my body just refuse to wake up, it was in sleeping mode.. it was raining on sunday, we thot of waiting til the rain stops but to no avail.. so my cousin n i was going around with her pink umbrella taking pictures of the house from outside view..

more pix, check this out - http://neomesuff.blogspot.com

checking out time was another busy time as i was still busy taking pictures, rearranging the stuffs in car, running around with the kids, saying a quiet goodbye to the beautiful place, while my cousin busy washing the dishes and getting the kids ready.. waited reasonably long for the mgmt guy to take the keys, thanks the haven god that he's sooo handsome !

went up to brinchang to buy vegetables and flowers.. went down to have tea at the tea valley.. went back home..

hmmmm... home sweet home..