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the end is in the beginning and yet you go on

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

is it me or some MALAY man are plain stupid ?

they say women are complicated. have they ever met a malay man ?

when we ask who they've gone out with, they'll say that we don't wanna borrow them money. (n of coz, for whatever stupid reason pun i still dont wanna borrow u money, i work, u work la)

when we ask when can they spend time with us, they'll say "insyaallah" and then accuse us of not giving them a notice in advance.

when we ask wht's going on with their lives, they'll say they are not entitled to answer to everybody but they'll answer directly when an unknown bitch ask in the internet.

when we fight, they'll say we never understand how much they love us.. (yeah right !)

the list can go on and on and on and on..........................

oh, one more important point -
when they practice poligamy, "ikut nabi"...
come debate with me about islam & nabi.. ada berani ka ???

Thursday, July 19, 2007

let's do some serious thinking ! serious !

to achieve goals and ambitions
to overcome obstacles and attain a high standard
to increase self-regard by the succesful exercise of talent
to overcome opposition
to have control and influence over others
to defend myself
to defend my psychological space
to vindicate the ego
to receive attention
to be seen and heard
to excite, amaze, fascinate, shock, intrigue, amuse, entertain or entice others
to be free from social restrictions
to resist coercion and constriction
to be independent and act acoording to desire
to defy covention
to avoid pain
to avoid shame
to obliterate part humiliation by resumed action
to maintain self-respect
to repress fear
to overcome weakness
to belong
to be accepted
to draw close and enjoyably reciprocate with another
to converse in a friendly manner, to tell stories, exchange sentiments, ideas, secrets
to communicate, to converse
to laugh and make jokes
to win affection of desired other
to adhere and remain loyal to other
to enjoy sensuous experiences with cathected other
to feed, help, protect, comfort, console, support, nurse or heal
to be fed, helped, protected, comforted, consoled, supported, nursed or healed
to form mutually enjoyable, enduring, cooperating and reciprocating relationship with other, with an equal
to be forgiven
to be loved
to be free


am stage-managing a play titled 4.48 psychosis written by sarah kane, directed by gavin yap, cast line-up are susan lankester, samantha schubert & malik taufiq.

check out : www.klpac.com

we just started reading the play, gavin put in his creative ideas into the presentation of the line, amazingly harmony. but if you listen very carefully, it's not psycho at all. it's all fact and sadly true which we human being always take for granted..

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

my dream vacation mansion










it's not a mansion la but compared to my 900sqft apartment, it's a mansion to me. it's in cameron highland. it's a beautiful place to relax & party !

when my cousin ask if i can join them to cameron highland, i was like "hmmmmm..." at first.. i was tired due to my new job(s), i haven't had enuf rest, i haven't had enuf time spent with love ones, i haven't had enuf time for myself.. still i decided to go coz my butt is just aching to get out of kl (once a while)..

so, i "halfly" ponteng work tht saturday (july 14). halfly coz i didnt turn up til working hour almost over. made my cousin and the kids waited in the car for about an hour while i went up to the office to pretend tht i came to work and did some stuffs..

road to cameron via tapah was not as bad as i remember.. smooth driving as not many people goes up there.. reach HILLSBROW BUNGALOW (owned by MNI Insurance), i was stunned. (thank u azah & azman for inviting us). pretended to be cool when azah & hubby was around but when they left for brinchang's pasar malam, i became like jakun ! going around the house taking pictures, didnt miss any angle (i think !).. in my head, am already planning a private garden party.. i'd love to get drunk in this house !..

we basically didnt go anywhere in cameron that day, just enjoying the house.. the kids happily jumping and running around coz of the bigger running area, the adults were busy pretending that we owned the house and just relaxing..

luckily i was smart enuf to transport my beloved mr. jack daniel to warm me from the highland weather.. everybody was asking how i can lepak with my sleeveless while the rest already turn from pinkish to blueish.. hehehheheeh.. mr. daniel never let me down !

weather was damn cold due to heavy rain.. my body just refuse to wake up, it was in sleeping mode.. it was raining on sunday, we thot of waiting til the rain stops but to no avail.. so my cousin n i was going around with her pink umbrella taking pictures of the house from outside view..

more pix, check this out - http://neomesuff.blogspot.com

checking out time was another busy time as i was still busy taking pictures, rearranging the stuffs in car, running around with the kids, saying a quiet goodbye to the beautiful place, while my cousin busy washing the dishes and getting the kids ready.. waited reasonably long for the mgmt guy to take the keys, thanks the haven god that he's sooo handsome !

went up to brinchang to buy vegetables and flowers.. went down to have tea at the tea valley.. went back home..

hmmmm... home sweet home..

Saturday, July 07, 2007

my special thank


came back from anak bulan di kampong wa' hassan tour with a big smile..
got priceless experiences & new relationships

my special thanks to all the kampongs who has welcomed us with open hand and made us at home :
Kampong Bekor, Kuala Kangsar, Perak
Kampong Pulau Betong, Balik Pulau, Pulau Pinang
Bukit Tinggi, Klang, Selangor
Kampong Sungai Karang Darat, Kuantan, Pahang
Kampong Bukit China, Melaka
Kampong Parit Haji Ali, Batu Pahat, Johor

my special thanks to all who has involved directly with me in organizing the kampong tour :
en. mohd isa (ketua kampong), kapt. amisa, kak jie, abg wan (for kg bekor)
haji mimi, en. halimi & jkkk pulau betong (for kg pulau betong)
en. shariff and boboy, my beloved mom (for bukit tinggi)
en.zaim, en.zul, alang & jkkk kg sg karang darat (for kg sg karang darat)
en. ashakari, ain & family, ewan, pakcik isnin & family (for kg bukit china)
en. masran & family, jkkk kg parit haji ali (for kg parit haji ali)

my special thanks
to faridah & joe for believing me..
to my 2 crew - pyan & shah.. if not for you two, i might have gone crazy..
to rina for listening to me everyday..
to zam & wan who made sure my cats were well fed when i was away..
to klpac & the actors studio team who assisted me in the production..
to zam, abg sham, abg yus, kak long & mom for enlightening my tour finale..
to zam, shah & elly for enlightening the beginning of the tour..

i hope i didnt leave anybody but if i do, am sorry. thank you so very much for each contribution. my heart goes to all of you !

i want to again !!!!!!!!!!! cuti-cuti malaysia..........

pet rules

the love & hate relationship with my cats

Dear Rufus, Hazel & Leo,

The dishes with the paw print are yours and contain your food.
The other dishes are mine and contain my food. Please note,
placing a paw print in the middle of my plate and food, does
not stake a claim for it becoming your food and dish, nor do I
find that aesthetically pleasing in the slightest.

The living hall was not designed by F1 and is not a racetrack.
Beating me to the room or kitchen is not the object. Tripping me doesn't
help because I fall faster than you can run.

I cannot buy anything bigger than a queen sized bed. I am very sorry
about this. Do not think I will continue sleeping on the couch to
ensure your comfort. Cats can actually curl up in a ball
when they sleep. It is not necessary to sleep perpendicular to each
other stretched out to the fullest extent possible. I also know that
sticking tails straight out and having tongues hanging out the other
end to maximize space is nothing but sarcasm.

For the last time, there is not a secret exit from the bathroom. If by
some miracle I beat you there and manage to get the door shut, it
is not necessary to claw, whine, meow, try to turn the knob or get
your paw under the edge and try to pull the door open. I must exit
through the same door I entered. Also, I have been using the
bathroom for years -- feline attendance is not required.

The proper order is kiss me, then go smell the other cat's butt.
I cannot stress this enough!

To pacify you, my dear pets, I have posted the following message
on our front door:

To All Non-Pet Owners Who Visit & Like to Complain
About Our Pets:

01. They live here. You don't.
02. If you don't want their hair on your clothes, stay off the furniture.
(That's why they call it "fur"niture.)
03. I like my pets a lot better than I like most people.
04. To you, it's an animal. To me, they are my 3 daughters
who are short, hairy, walks on all fours and doesn't speak clearly.

Remember: In many ways, cats are better than
kids because they:
01. Eat less
02. Don't ask for money all the time
03. Are easier to train
04. Normally come when called
05. Never ask to drive the car
06. Don't hang out with drug-using friends
07. Don't smoke or drink (i don't have to share mine !)
08. Don't have to buy the latest fashions
09. Don't want to wear your clothes
10. Don't need a "gazillion" dollars for college.