one chapter opens

it was suppose to be a sad opening.. hmmm... but amazingly am not sad..
i did wrong things, i gotta accept it..

falling in love with a person "Z" that am not suppose to fall in love with..
falling for another person "R" that i know i have no future with...

am back to the former after the latter dissapoint me...

if you (the former) ever come to know that there were points where i betrayed you, am really sorry.
if you (the latter) ever come to think that i were to be betrayed, am sorry for you.

R once said to me "if you ever need anything, i'll be there"
Z once said to me "you'll never need anything, i'll be there"...

one chapter closes...

my dear darling, if ever we are not meant for each other, i never regret the love we had. if ever we are meant to be together, i'll never trade it with anything else...